Post by Aiden "Rave" Hamilton on Jun 19, 2009 7:41:33 GMT -6
Dad called me last night at 8pm and asked me if I could sense anything about Annelie (I have gifts, won't go into them here..) and I told him that I felt nothing but a haze and calm.
... that's when he told me she had just died, I asked him when and he said half an hour ago... I instantly asked him if he wanted me to go back since I'm visiting my birth city (about 2hrs away by train) but he told me to stay and that he didn't want to mess my midsummer's day up more than he had to, I of course said it was complete nonsense since I was happy he called me to tell me. I was even the first one he called except for 911 to get a doctor there to declare her dead. That was a honor to hear even if it's in a very sad situation.
Annelie had been sleeping for almost three days and had barely eaten for several so he gave her some IVs with nutrition in (she was very very sick, needed personal aid 24/7) but it didn't help. She called out for him one last time and he came to her and took her hand, she looked up at him in surprise and then took her last breath and dad told her he loved her and ran his hand over her cheek.
She fell into her final sleep calmly and without pain. She had been using a lot of morphine due to her pain but the last two days of life she was just sleeping and didn't even need the pain meds so that in it self tells me (and I told dad) that her body shut down the pain from her mind to allow her to sleep peacefully and just go that way.
Annelie may have been very sick but at the same time she was a very sweet person too. I miss her greatly and I feel like a complete idiot since when I was there three days ago I didn't even go into her to say hello "since she was sleeping" ... I could feel that she was faltering even then when I was there, I felt the energies waving (I couldn't tell dad though, something prevented me to just like the death I foretold with my ex partner's dad a few years back, I missed his death with 25 minutes but I knew the night he was going to pass. Did the same with my grandmother (dad's side) and now Annelie too..). I hate this "gift" but at the same time I can't turn it off... it's something I have to accept no matter how hard it is.
However, when my grandmother died I went out into the woods and cried my eyes out and asked the sky why I was forced to pre-see when people I care about dies and leaves us. I was quite surprised when I got an answer... I closed my eyes and a being of yellow energy appeared and told me that it wasn't the death I foresaw but the fact that these people were meant and chosen for something bigger and I got the chance to say good bye to them in time and before they were chosen to leave this world to do a bigger task that was waiting for them somewhere else where they were needed more than here on earth. I opened my eyes quite surprised by that answer but it was honestly something I took to heart.
So, with that wisdom and the pain in my heart... I feel quite depressed but relieved as well as I feel love and care... quite confusing but the feeling of missing her is greatest at the moment, and the love and care as well as worry for my dad, I love him so much and I hate to see him in pain.
... that's when he told me she had just died, I asked him when and he said half an hour ago... I instantly asked him if he wanted me to go back since I'm visiting my birth city (about 2hrs away by train) but he told me to stay and that he didn't want to mess my midsummer's day up more than he had to, I of course said it was complete nonsense since I was happy he called me to tell me. I was even the first one he called except for 911 to get a doctor there to declare her dead. That was a honor to hear even if it's in a very sad situation.
Annelie had been sleeping for almost three days and had barely eaten for several so he gave her some IVs with nutrition in (she was very very sick, needed personal aid 24/7) but it didn't help. She called out for him one last time and he came to her and took her hand, she looked up at him in surprise and then took her last breath and dad told her he loved her and ran his hand over her cheek.
She fell into her final sleep calmly and without pain. She had been using a lot of morphine due to her pain but the last two days of life she was just sleeping and didn't even need the pain meds so that in it self tells me (and I told dad) that her body shut down the pain from her mind to allow her to sleep peacefully and just go that way.
Annelie may have been very sick but at the same time she was a very sweet person too. I miss her greatly and I feel like a complete idiot since when I was there three days ago I didn't even go into her to say hello "since she was sleeping" ... I could feel that she was faltering even then when I was there, I felt the energies waving (I couldn't tell dad though, something prevented me to just like the death I foretold with my ex partner's dad a few years back, I missed his death with 25 minutes but I knew the night he was going to pass. Did the same with my grandmother (dad's side) and now Annelie too..). I hate this "gift" but at the same time I can't turn it off... it's something I have to accept no matter how hard it is.
However, when my grandmother died I went out into the woods and cried my eyes out and asked the sky why I was forced to pre-see when people I care about dies and leaves us. I was quite surprised when I got an answer... I closed my eyes and a being of yellow energy appeared and told me that it wasn't the death I foresaw but the fact that these people were meant and chosen for something bigger and I got the chance to say good bye to them in time and before they were chosen to leave this world to do a bigger task that was waiting for them somewhere else where they were needed more than here on earth. I opened my eyes quite surprised by that answer but it was honestly something I took to heart.
So, with that wisdom and the pain in my heart... I feel quite depressed but relieved as well as I feel love and care... quite confusing but the feeling of missing her is greatest at the moment, and the love and care as well as worry for my dad, I love him so much and I hate to see him in pain.
